God Wants Me To Forgive Her?
|June 20, 2011||Posted by healthsmartmom under Spiritual Health|
I’ve decided to add a spiritual health category here at HealthSmartMom. I usually talked about matters of a spiritual nature over at Momprovement, but figured it had just as much a right to be here as other healthy topics. And unfortuneately the first topic is on forgiveness. (Ugh)
There is a person who I am extremely angry at about a certain event in my life – I mean really angry. My conversations with God about her go something like this “I know I’m supposed to forgive my enemies – but not today Lord, I am still so hurt and angry, and I just can’t think anything nice about this situation.”
And so far God has mostly left me alone about it – until this week.
And now he is really letting me know that I need to let go of my anger and forgive this person. Which I don’t really want to do – but I know that it’s time, I guess. So on Sunday he (the Lord) was really on my case about it – and it appeared that blessings were going to start being withheld if I didn’t get with the program so to speak. So Sunday my conversation with God about her went like this – “Okay God, fine – so I know that I need to forgive this person, and I certainly don’t want her to keep me from having good things in my life, so starting today I will try to start forgiving her.”
And this post is part of that forgiveness – to publicly let everyone know that I have some serious unforgiveness in my heart and that I am willing to let go of it.
There is a “fleece” that I have out there on this one – something that I wanted to see – on the weekend of July 8 – 10th. I was going to wait until the 7th of July to forgive (so as to not hold up blessings on the 8th) but God let me know that I needed to start yesterday – so I did. But I will certainly need your prayers to help me with my prayers about forgiving this person.
And for those who are curious – it doesn’t matter what she did – I’m not responsible for her actions – only mine -and my faith tells me that I need to forgive.
So if you are holding a resentment against someone in your life – know that not only is it hard on you physically in the form of stress, over or under-eating, loss of sleep, etc. Spiritually, it can hinder your life and success in life as well. So join with me this week and start to forgive (forgiving is usually aprocess) that person and see if it doesn’t have a positive impact on your life.
UPDATE: Well, talk about crashing and burning – nothing turned out even remotely like what I had wanted/hoped. But I am still working on forgiving (it’s sort of a daily thing for me – I think I’m doing fine then a thought pops in my head and I have to choose whether to get angry again or to let it go). I don’t understand God most of the time, but I do know in my heart – that regardless of whether or not any good comes into my life as a direct result of it – I still need to forgive this person. So keep praying for me! And keep on forgiving others!